Fake Life

It is a short post since I am not in a good mood. Lately, I am not in my best mood. A lot of things are in my mind but I don't want to share it to anyone. Even the tear needs to fall, but telling someone about the problem is not the best way for now. Let this heart keeps it by itself. The pain and sorrow feel so not right. The laughter feels so bitter and fake. This face tried to be friendly, but it never worked.

Their joy and laughter are a pain for me. I didn't know why, but this feeling seems not right. I feel not like myself. This is fake. A fake laughter, a fake smile, a fake calmness. They won't ever notice it. I really miss them now. At least, they know that I am not a happy and joyful kid. 3 years tried to be a nice person is not changing anything. I think it is the best to go back. It is time to be myself.

The pain to be fake is spreading. Talk to much didn't help at all. No one will hear my words. I am a minor. I can't change the fact that no one will ever hear my opinion since the beginning. People always ignore me. No matter how hard I have tried, nothing changed.

It has to be ended.

"Everyday is A Brand New Story"

Renveriouz